Continually Scared

Why do I surf the internet to find stuff out about UC? All it ends up doing is scaring me...which in turn stresses me out...which in turn makes me think I'm going to have a full on flare-up! That's the circle that I continually find myself in. So it's time to stop it.

Yep, I'm worried about stuff, but then again, who isn't worried about stuff (big or small)...most of it I can't control and yes I do now realise that it's abnormal to get as worried as I do about stuff, but I just can't help it...who would I be if I didn't have something to worry about? Maybe a very content person...maybe a very stupid person...who knows....ignorance is bliss as they say.

So this week, after reading more stuff about UC and other people's experiences I have successfully scared myself last night over the meds I'm taking...so today, I'm going to have a big talk to myself (yep...first sign of madness) about what I'm doing to myself and somehow, I going to get myself calmed down and not going to set myself off with another UC flare-up! I know it's all controlled by my mind and what I'm thinking over a period of time.

On another personnel front..I'm worried about my boy's up coming operation....he is now 7 and has to have circumcision because of issues and infections in the last 2 years. I worry about the operation and the pain that he will have to deal with afterwards and unfortunately my boy is also a born worrier, so I've hidden facts from him. We'll deal with those later once he's in recovery. His operation is in France in 2 weeks..so yet again I deal with the language barrier..oh to go home for good....oh well, one more year in France to cope with...back to Oz in 2011

How does he know?

This is inspired by Rich's blog the other day, in the funny things that children say. My youngest is 7 and they both knew what I have..although saying that I think I better ask them exactly what disease they think I have. Well you never know what they might come up with. I also realise that primary kids, especially the lower years, just love to share all sorts of information at school with the teacher and I'm sure we've had a few family secrets / embarrassing moments shared already....but heck worse things can happen :D


So anyway, a few weeks ago my Dad was over visiting and we headed out in the car for a day trip. At the top of the village my 7 year old boy screamed ... and yes I really do mean screamed as it was right beside my ear..."There's a Virgin!!"......silence in the car...... What the....!! How does he knew she's a virgin ... emmm, what does he think is a virgin...more embarrassing silence ... then ding the light went on...he's seen a statue on the wall of the Virgin Mary....there's loads of them everywhere over here....ddddooohhhh.....!

I wonder what he'll come out with next....

I did check to see what they thought I had....both said they couldn't remember the name of it, but it and it meant I spent a lot of time in the loo and we always had to know where the nearest toilet was if we were out and about....ah well, that's not too bad!