Why do I surf the internet to find stuff out about UC? All it ends up doing is scaring me...which in turn stresses me out...which in turn makes me think I'm going to have a full on flare-up! That's the circle that I continually find myself in. So it's time to stop it.
Yep, I'm worried about stuff, but then again, who isn't worried about stuff (big or small)...most of it I can't control and yes I do now realise that it's abnormal to get as worried as I do about stuff, but I just can't help it...who would I be if I didn't have something to worry about? Maybe a very content person...maybe a very stupid person...who knows....ignorance is bliss as they say.
So this week, after reading more stuff about UC and other people's experiences I have successfully scared myself last night over the meds I'm taking...so today, I'm going to have a big talk to myself (yep...first sign of madness) about what I'm doing to myself and somehow, I going to get myself calmed down and not going to set myself off with another UC flare-up! I know it's all controlled by my mind and what I'm thinking over a period of time.
On another personnel front..I'm worried about my boy's up coming operation....he is now 7 and has to have circumcision because of issues and infections in the last 2 years. I worry about the operation and the pain that he will have to deal with afterwards and unfortunately my boy is also a born worrier, so I've hidden facts from him. We'll deal with those later once he's in recovery. His operation is in France in 2 weeks..so yet again I deal with the language barrier..oh to go home for good....oh well, one more year in France to cope with...back to Oz in 2011